Rediscover

Today I was thinking a lot youth and how, when you're young, there's this core of good feelings that dominate your feelings and life.
As you get older, however, this core of well-being gets replaced. Sometimes it gets replaced, sometimes not. And you lose that ability to just be unequivocally happy. When you're middle-aged or older, or I guess even younger, how do you get back to that place? The one that might lead you to dance around the store with your loved ones without any care in the world. Honestly, what strikes me as the biggest barrier to finding that feeling again is politics. Or at least the kind of politics that flares like a nasty case of hemorrhoids through so many people right now.

Big Problem

The biggest problem I have at the moment is not having enough time. There are about 40 different things I would like to do or try that I think could improve various aspects of my life, but I don't have the time. Courses I would like to take. Training. Those types of things.

Time

It's going by too fast. Not today or this week, but the entirety of life.
I would give anything to do everything again the exact same way, both the good and bad.

Time

You tell yourself you'll do it when you have time. You're just waiting until you have time. But you aren't going to just "get" the time.. And it feels like forces are working against you even more because you have that thing you want so badly to do. That's why you can't wait until you get time, you have to make the time. You have to carve it out - before or after work, during lunch, late at night before bed. You make the time.

For me it's writing. Maybe it's something different for you.

Make the time.

Parenthood Thought

Weird how one day you can go from feeling like your kids adore you to wondering if they hate you.